The Bitter End . . . . . . . Not!
If there is one thing I’ve learned from my walkabout thus far, it is this:
All the clichés are true!
“Money doesn’t buy happiness.” “Time heals all wounds.” “Life isn’t fair.” “It takes two to tango.” “The squeaky wheel gets the grease.” “Opposites attract.” “Consider the source.”
And my current personal favorite:
“It ain’t over till it’s over.”
I’ve been thinking about the suicidal investors who leaped to their death during the stock market crash of 1929. If you have been reading my previous posts, you know I experienced a financial calamity of my own just before Christmas.
For me “It ain’t over till it’s over.” I know from experience that life goes on. Bitter ends aren’t really ends. Pain fades over time, and everything changes to something else eventually.
I have become adept at “making lemonade out of lemons,” and my turn around time for this has diminished with age.
This is not to say that I didn’t cry, panic, or have tantrums about my misfortune. I did all of that and more. I spent a lot of time in my “dark place”– telling myself I was a failure, and that I didn’t deserve the financial security that others seemed to have. I was sure I was going to be pushing my belongings around Portland in a shopping cart. (And this would be a dang wet and cold place to do that.)
After awhile, I told myself to “get over myself” and to stop telling myself bad things about myself.
And, in between bouts of sniveling, I managed to come up with Plan B for my predicament.
Today I can be philosophical. Things are always changing. Some times things feel good and fair and sometimes they don’t. I read a blog post about negativity by Kyle Mercer who made the profound statement that “the universe is neutral.”
It was a huge relief to know that the universe wasn’t really out to get me.
I knew that if I was going to be happy, it was going to be, as they say, “an inside job.”
So my new advice to myself is (and this is no cliche): “Listen to the voice inside you that wants you to be happy.”
This is perhaps the most profound lesson of my walkabout.
I am determined to live in this city and continue my walkabout. I am working my social media business a bit more and with some success. This is not the worst thing – it is my calling after all. I love being the walkabout woman, but I also love the adventure of being an entrepreneur. So . . .
“All is not lost.”
“Necessity is the mother of invention.”
More than anything I am curious about where these new developments will take me.
“Curiosity will conquer fear even more than bravery will.” and “Better late than never.”