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If not now, when???

10-5-2015-marla

I  am getting ready for a trip to New York City. It’s #1 on my travel bucket list.

This is not the most affordable trip I could take. Like all trips, there is the getting there (not cheap) and the lodging (REALLY not cheap) and the eating, the transportation etc. However, I’ve pulled it together as affordably as I can. I am going with my good friend Patty, who has traveled to many exotic places, but has never been to New York City.

I would put it off if I were younger. But, at 61 years old, my new favorite things to say to myself is: “If not now, when???”

I had this trip planned some 7 years ago, but my kid got into trouble, so I canceled. The ensuing years were filled with worry and sacrifice. I look at the pictures from 7 years ago and it shows in my face, beyond what would be normal aging.

Now this child’s life is not my life — to protect with MY life anymore. But, for a long time there, I felt I was finished. Like I was done with new and growth and a future — and moving backward in a long slow slide to my own demise.

Getting another chance, at what I was planning when it all fell apart, feels like a reboot.  Back to the “before” and still capable of something approximating the future I had imagined. I am still a work in progress.

New York will probably look different to me now than it would have 7 years ago. I will get different things out of this visit – find different meanings and be changed and inspired in different ways.

And, thanks to Facebook, I have discovered that a friend I haven’t seen in 20+ years will be at a theater just down the street from where I am staying — the night I arrive in NYC. Our babies – her boy and my girl – were friends in the Indiana neighborhood where we both lived. New mothers together, we shared a pivotal time in our lives! My baby grew up and is a mother now herself. And her son is getting married soon.

We will both be exhausted by then. I will have traveled all day and she will be flying out early the next morning, but there is a chance we can meet for a few minutes when the play lets out.

It’s funny to think that we would both land, once again, at the same time and at the same place in this whole wide world.

 

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  1. No one understands this post if they have not lived with raising children. The experience is unique, wonderful, sad, aging, inspiring…there aren’t enough words to explain. I can identify with the writer and wish her well on her new life’s walkabout.

    September 7, 2016
  2. Go for it!

    September 6, 2016
  3. Lizotte Ruth #

    Hi Betsy,

    Have a great trip! Good for you to be saying yes to the bucket list and to NYC!

    I’m thinking of heading to Sisters to go hiking with an 87 year old friend of mine…who is an amazing man and hiker. Do you have any suggestions on a place we could stay…sleeping in separate rooms? Cheap? Are you living in Sisters now?

    Sorry to be so out of touch! How are you? Where are you? What’s occupying your mind and time? Any chance of seeing you in Portland sometime soon?

    Fondly, Ruth >

    September 6, 2016

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